nonsense posto,again

I have lots of time to update but I didnt do it. there are lots of clouds on my head with question marks inside. Im just feeling empty and whenever I want to type,my mind goes blank. thats why there are no new post till now.

dear soul sister,

no idea about my karyas. blank. after my old karyas vanished because of the viruses, I just feel of not writing and dreaming. I think I use less brain these past few months. even to dream. where's the word DREAM BIG goes? idk.

study? dont want to talk about it too much. What I can say, it feels so suffocating being inside the classroom or lecture halls. my heart isnt here,dss. and to make it worst,i didnt know where it is. less brain,less heart. Im such a bummer. 

passion? naa,no passion at all. more nonsense talks adalah. i need something to interrupt my numbness,something that is useful to me next next day. something,something..

usrah? i dont think so.

i need something to trigger my creative rust dust side of mind. what is it? Im looking for it..

my life right now surely is full of dark clouds. I cant see where my direction in the future. and this field,the science forensic field I dont think Im in it next four years. this is just my gut. whatever direction that I'll go through, first of all and to mention again is: FINISH YOUR FIRST DEGREE!

 love;

senoritakiwirara

lovesaysinfinity

p/s; hi,to the new reader;s,this blog well err is basically about myself. it's more to my diary. thats why posto inside here is kinda ridiculous and totally nonsense. feel free to read and comment ;)